Josstay: Nikah Muda.
Scene Five: The love that last forever.
Warning: English isn't my first language. Please accept if there are any errors in the writing, and I welcome anyone who want to correct my English. Thank you.
After an overnight hug, Tawan finally felt better. When someone said that loved ones were the most effective medicine, Tawan agreed without much protest.
“Let's pack our things,” Joss asked after seeing Tawan's face light up again.
Tawan nodded and they hurried to pack the things that would be taken on vacation.
Tawan also did not expect that the reason Joss was always out with his friends was to plan their vacation together. Tawan couldn't help but cry when he heard that, because the man already thought that Joss didn't care.
“Ready to make some new memories together, Little Te?” Joss asked with a twinkle in his eye.
Tawan chuckled softly and nodded, “I'm ready, kak J.”
They traveled for about 5 hours to get to the inn, which was very close to the beach. If their first honeymoon had been to a beach that was still in Banten, this time they both decided to go outside the island.
Bali.
This beautiful island became Joss and Tawan's destination for a 3-day vacation.
Tawan smiled broadly at the beach in front of his eyes. So beautiful and amazing. Just arriving and being close to the blue colored water made Tawan feel his stress reduced drastically.
Tawan felt a large hand hugging his waist. Tawan held the hand and leaned against the broad chest behind him.
“Do you like it?”
Tawan nodded, “I really like it. Whose recommendation is that? When we are in Bali, we usually stay near Kuta, Ubud, but this time in Gianyar.”
Joss just chuckled softly, “Kayavin's recommendation. He had a photo shoot here. I was looking for a quiet place that felt like home. I know you need a quiet place to get your energy back.”
“It's been a long time since we last spent time alone, ya kak J.” Tawan said.
“I miss you.” Joss whispered.
“I miss you so much.” The man whispered again. His voice trembled, as if he was holding back all the affection he had for the man in his arms.
Tawan smiled, releasing Joss's grip on his waist. The small man turned and looked Joss straight in the eye. He wrapped his arms around Joss's neck and the man's hands returned to the possessive embrace around his waist.
“I miss you too...” Tawan whispered softly. Tawan suddenly kissed Joss.
Joss' eyes widen in surprise as Tawan suddenly kisses him on the lips. The unexpected move makes him momentarily nervous, but he quickly regains his composure.
“You little Te.” he mutters huskily, his hands squeezing his hips tighter. He responds to the kiss, his lips moving fiercely against Tawan, hungry and intense.
Joss moans as Tawan intensifies the kiss, Tawan's lips pressing again.
Joss breaks the kiss for a brief moment, his lips separating from yours with a soft pop. He looks at Tawan with a mixture of admiration and desire.
“You're so damn good at this,” he groans, his breath heavy. His hands begin to roam over Tawan's body, touching and exploring him.
“You're going to be the death of me, Little Te,” Joss say with fervor. He responds eagerly, matching your intensity and dominating the kiss.
Joss hands on Tawan's hips pull him even closer, his tongue slipping into his mouth, seeking and tasting against him. The heat between you is palpable, the desire in the air.
Joss can feel the effect he's having on Tawan, the soft moans and little gasps of his husband as he touches and explores his body. It only increases his own desire for him.
“Kak J... please....” Tawan whined and begged in velvet voice.
“Please what, sweet thing?” he asks hoarsely, his hands continuing their exploration of his body.
*“Kak J, please... please touch me more...””
Joss' eyes darken at Tawan's request, the words “please touch me more” driving him wild.
“Hehe, since you asked so nicely, I guess I can't resist.” He replies in a deep, husky voice.
Tawan and Joss spent the rest of the evening making love like there was no tomorrow. Touching each other and trying to channel all their burning longing.
As the passionate moment ends, Tawan and Joss lie in each other's arms, panting and satisfied. The room is filled with the aftermath of their intimate moment, the air thick with the scent of desire. Joss pulls Tawan closer to him, his hands gently caressing Tawan skin in a tender gesture.
“Thank you Little Te” Joss whispered softly while hugging Tawan tightly.
Joss believed that now was the time to communicate what he was feeling. Joss had stepped out of the bed the last time Tawan told him, 'I love you'. And he had felt bad until now, and now was the time to confess everything.
“Little te, listen to this, because I'm not going to say it twice.” Joss started a conversation that he had been saving for a long time.
“Little Te, my husband, my everything, kasihku, sayangku, first of all, I want to say I'm sorry that you had to wait this long to get these words.”
“Little Te, Thank you for patiently waiting for me to recover from the trauma. Thank you for accompanying me through therapy sessions and always understanding what was going on in my head without me having to tell you. Thank you for believing in me every step of the way. Thank you for being one of the most incredible people in the world. I truly am nothing without you. You motivate me to fall in love again and live a happy life without any trauma.”
“If you think I haven't had a thing for you all this time, you are entirely wrong. I liked you from the first time we met, but I always denied it, believing that I didn't deserve to be loved and that I was hard to love, but you taught me that loving me is as simple as breathing; you loved me even after I hurt you and neglected you on purpose. That's when I started wondering myself: Was I truly undeserving of love? Was it only my mind? I tried to wriggle rid of this entangling shackle, but it was really hard.”
“People began asking me for counseling and treatment, but I declined because I believed I was fine. But there was a time when I saw your smile and thought, I want to live with you forever. I want to feel loved and be loved in a pleasant way, away from thoughts that imply I don't deserve to be loved. That's where I get my dedication to fix things so I can love you as much as you do.”
“Tawan, thank you. Thank you for taking part in my life. Thank you for showing me the love that I deserve. Thank you for letting me adore you in my own manner. Thank you. I don't think thank you is enough; I'll repay you by accompanying and loving you until the last day of my life.”
Tawan had wept tears from the start when he heard his name mentioned affectionately. The moment he had been waiting for had came: Joss loved him wholeheartedly and without the haunting shadow of trauma.
The man covered his face to hide the tears that grew louder as he heard his husband's words.
“Kak J. Kak J.” Tawan repeated his husband's name.
“Yes, little Te?” Joss answered him with a silky smooth voice.
“I can't believe it when people say it's hard to love you. Loving you is the easiest thing I've ever done, as easy as breathing, as easy as choosing which anime to watch today. It's that easy, isn't it?”
Joss nodded with small laugh.
“If somebody tells you that you do not deserve to be loved, ignore them. Just listen to me, Tawan, your loved one; I will prove to you till the last breath of my life that you are deserving of all the love I have in this world.”
“Thank you, Kak J, for loving me and trying for our marriage. Let us fight for it together starting now. Collaborate together in both joy and sadness.” Tawan cupped Joss' cheek, which was already damp with tears. The man was crying, but he had managed to express his emotions, and Tawan was really proud of him.
“Kak J, I love you the most.” Tawan whispered in his softest and most affectionate voice.
Joss smiled warmly as his vision was blocked by tears. He leaned forward and kissed Tawan's forehead with intense tenderness.
“I love you the mostest, Little Te.”
Tawan received the love he had been longing for. Finally, his husband, Joss Wayar, reciprocated his declaration of love.